Wednesday, 6 January 2016

OMM - Graduation

This is what I look forward to the most. To be able to wear a cap and gown, I think that is when I will feel like I have achieved the first level of success. That is a feeling I'd love to experience. For all my efforts through 16 years of education to officially conclude with a graduation ceremony. hah~ is this real life? Every second season I walk past all the fresh graduates and absorb their energy. It is very motivational and empowering.

To have a goal is something that I don't have often. However, when I walk through these graduates, seeing their smiling faces, taking pictures with their families, it is something that inspires me to become a graduate myself. To continue being diligent and not give up. I will not graduate until Winter 2017...well, if for some reason that is setback then it will be during the following summer. So until then, I will continue to strive and complete this bachelors degree. 

Just a short one for today. It just passed my mind so I thought I'd write about it. That is what this segment is for anyway. Have a great night :)

Lea GJ

Tuesday, 5 January 2016

Listen - Afterwhile | Kirk Franklin ft Yolanda Adams

This spiritual melody by Kirk Franklin & Yolanda Adams is enough to allow listeners to find 'peace of mind'. The lyrics are full of help and truth. The song is a big reassurance to those who are feeling a little lost, anxious and/or emotionally drained. If I had 3 words to describe the overall song; Guiding, Reassuring, and Uplifting.

As I write this I am listening to the song once more as I am trying to capture the genuine feelings that conjure up and throw it into some sensible words. I'll break down a few lyrics from the song and express the emotions that it evoked and the motivations that became ignited. 'Afterwhile' is a song full of deep lyrics that are strong enough to encase the negative mindset that one may currently be enduring. Offered is a light of tranquility that can be felt simply through the beautiful tone and lyrics. 

'This too shall pass afterwhile
Scars will heal, you'll love again
It won't hurt afterwhile'

The above section of lyrics really caused me to analyse my current situation and feel assured that in fact 'time will heal all things'. The troubles that are eating at your conscience, the dislike that you have for your reflection, the pains that you cannot let go of, the memories that exist in your mind, will be able to patch itself together with time. The process of healing is not an overnight thing with the lyrics hinting on patience as the key. Recovery and comeback is possible, transporting the strength of the lyrics through the passion of Yolanda Adams' vocals into the reality of the listener. If you allow your focus to truly engulf in the songs offering then I believe you will be able to feel the power of the lyrics message and that it may have the ability to alter the negativity that may currently exist in ones life. 

'So when the pain has come to end
And now your heart is whole again
Help someone who needs to know
That it won't hurt them afterwhile'

When you listen to each and every lyric in this song, I believe that is when you can feel its true meaning and purpose. Overcoming the troubles, acquiring reassurance that it will get better and offering comfort to another being is the greatest outcome that can be realistically achieved. It is not over when your troubles are 'healed', it is when you also give your support to others, that is what really makes you feel righteous. I think that is the message that Kirk Franklin intended to pass on through this song. When you've found strength within your self and 'your heart is whole again', share that with others so that they may know that it will pass, afterwhile. 

I'd love to know of more songs that carry this kind of strength with them, so let me know if you are reminded of any :) Thanks for reading.

Lea GJ

Wednesday, 14 October 2015

OMM - Relationships

A relationship. What is it? That is what I am trying to figure out. How long does it take to discover if the person is 'the one'? That is what I am trying to figure out. What does it mean if my mind is constantly changing the opinion I have on the person? That is what I am trying to figure out. Should I wait a while or give up now? That is what I am trying to figure out. If I spend so much time thinking these things, what meaning does that have? I need some answers because my conscience is giving me no straight answers.

This whole relationship thing is an entire new platform for me. My dad was always strict about the 'NO BOYFRIENDS' rule which I followed. However when the restriction kept extending, from age 16 to high school graduation to UNIVERSITY GRADUATION!!! I do not know why but it made me so upset and frustrated, even to the point of tears. It came to a point where I did not care if the opportunity came for me because my jealousy of seeing other couples everyday after Uni would increase everyday. Walking along the main street as a solo-being really decreased my already low confidence level. I really understood and felt the feeling of loneliness. That must sound so dramatic and ungrateful but that is the reality of my emotions. I became self-admittedly desperate. So here I am, 20 years old, finally matched with a guy. Whether it is a perfect match is in my biggest doubts. 

I am really unsure if the person I am with now is the one I am meant to be with forever. I have constant doubts. My mind is telling me, 'who cares, just stick with this person, they showed interest which is all I wanted therefore I should just let it be`. I feel that perhaps I am being really selfish by staying in this relationship when I am not 100% certain that it is what I want. In fact, I do not know what I want.

Sometimes I have moments where I feel like I am certain I have found the right person but also there are times where I stop and think 'what am I even doing? Is this what I want?'. It kind of feels like I did not let myself have enough time to 'mingle' and just jumped straight into a 'serious' relationship.

Anyway, once again I will leave it here for now and will pick this back up in a Part 2 sometime in the future. Thanks for reading.

Lea GJ

Sunday, 11 October 2015

OMM - Living and working overseas

Recently I have been really into the Korean culture and have been watching hundreds of videos revolving around it. I have even learnt how to read and write Korean which I am extremely fascinated about. To be quite honest, I thought it would be more difficult learning up to this stage but so far the progress has been quite swift and simple. I am picking up words and common phrases used from variety, reality and casual shows.

Anyway, back on to the topic of this post, I stumbled across many people who have graduated from university and moved to Korea to teach English . This took my interest immediately! Coincidentally, I was casually browsing through a local job website when I saw an opportunity to teach English in Korea. I took this as a sign of fate.

- Continuing this from 28/03/15 on 09/08/15 -

I've decided to do a student exchange to a University in Korea. Well, I hope to be accepted into the programme for Semester 2 of 2016. My University is partners with....

- Continuing this from 09/08/15 on 11/10/15 -

Well it seems that I am unable to finish writing this post due to probably social media distractions haha. So~ I will try to pick up where I left off.

Oh, about that student exchange programme thing...I've decided not to do it. No specific reasons, just a casual decision. I will just finish up my university studies in my home country and will just travel to Korea for a holiday instead. It would be awesome if I could perhaps have a working holiday overseas in Korea or to complete my University Co-op assignment there.

In terms of living overseas, I do not think it will be a situation of mine for the coming short-term however I would absolutely love to live abroad in the future. Countries that I would consider living for an extended period would be South Korea, Europe and China.

Well, this post was not so informative but it is what was/is On My Mind. See ya in the next one.

Lea GJ

Friday, 2 October 2015

OMM - Worry less, all will be ok

I literally do not know why I am writing this post at this particular time as I am currently 2 hours overdue for an essay that I have not yet started. There is so much on my mind, I guess this post will lighten my load a bit.

I can easily admit that procrastination has led to my past few assignments all exceeding the submission date. Even now, as I mentioned before, I have an essay due as of 2 hours ago. Yet, here I am, 'wasting' more time writing this... So as I lay in my bed mid-breakdown, I ponder over what I really am doing with my life. I hate studying, but I continue to do it. I hate my job, but I continue to do it. I want to give up everyday, but I still make an effort. It seems that all other things must be prioritised over my happiness and wellbeing. Some people really forget the importance of ones self-happiness which is where I tend to get caught up in and 'follow the crowd'.

I need the reassurance to know that it is OK to abandon an essay for the sake of my mentality. To know that it is OK to skip an assignment when it is majorly compromising my mental stability. This is not to say that if you are upset over 'school work' that you should give up. This message is to reassure my readers that it is OK to not complete something for the sake of your mind and self. I can easily see where I can be misunderstood here, so I'll do my best to make it clear. I guess it is my own fault in some cases because of my insufficient time management skills. However, that is overruled in cases where I feel so mentally overloaded and unstable that I literally cannot function efficiently.

Listen to my words; EVERYONE functions differently. Some people are able to handle more than others. So do not ever compare how much you can handle with the amount that another person can handle. Understand your own mind to the point where you can make individual decisions to support your stability. I am not a counsellor nor a psychologist, I merely just want to reassure people that it is OK. If you compare one test to the entirety of the world, you can see how minimal it is. It is not the end of the world if you give something up for the sake of caring for your own personal wellbeing.  I repeat, it is not the end of the world.

Post breakdown and after a big encouragement and reassurance from a close friend, my mind feels clear and focused. Less crowded and definitely more in a relaxed state. Now 5 hours after the deadline and I feel more at peace and calm compared to my earlier feelings. Yes it has been 3 hours since I first started writing this post. I had a lot to ponder over.

For meditation, relaxation or sleeping assistance I recommend listening to ASMR videos on Youtube. Just search ASMR in the search bar. My favourites are; Gentle whispering and fairy ASMR.

This post is probably missing a lot of content. I will edit it again in the morning. If you feel some offence or feel what I have said is wrong, please let me know, so I can further explain my intentions. I mean no wrong or harm, I merely want to be that message of reassurance for those who are feeling the strains and pressures from their surroundings.

Lea GJ

Sunday, 11 January 2015

Healthy Bugger - Kayla Itsines BBG week 1

January 6th is the day I committed myself to Kayla Itsines' Bikini Body Guide. I had been contemplating purchasing it for about 2 months, the new year gave me the final push I needed to be serious and devoted to attaining my ideal, healthy, fit and happy body. To which I then purchased her Ebook that you can find here. As I mentioned in one of my previous posts, I have tried numerous times already to lose weight and get fit however, I am determined and willing to put everything aside to focus on getting my mindset straight and my body where it needs to be. 

So, week 1 is officially over and I can truthfully say that I am already seeing changes. My abdomen is becoming toned. I feel that a lot of my side/back flab has lessened. Prior to commencing I used to be able to hold a fair chunk of 'side rolls' but now I can only just get hold of a piece of it. That would have to be the most noticeable physical difference. 

I have been eating very well and I might make a separate post on my meal plan if it continues to go well. There hasn't been a real craving for any specific foods although I did have one stick of pocky earlier today (that my sister gave to me) and the chocolate on that stick definitely set off some chocolate withdrawal cravings. 

I have been contributing a lot more to housework which my mum is very happy about. I'm not sure if becoming more active with fitness has caused me to feel the same towards cleaning but I thought I would mention it anyway because I have been getting out of my room more. 

Confidence-wise no difference at the moment. I do have a more positive approach to my mornings which I really appreciate. Truthfully, being summer and all, waking up to a clear blue sky does instantly spell me into a happy spirited mood.

I'll post another update after the completion of week 2 and will prepare some pictures to post also.

Thanks for reading, if you're doing the guide also I hope that everything is going well, don't give in to temptation! Stay strong :)

Lea GJ

Saturday, 3 January 2015

Read - Hirunaka no ryuusei

Hirunaka no ryuusei (Daytime shooting star) , the first manga that I have ever read and completed. I am so happy that I read this manga because it is literally the greatest read! Definitely will recommend this for those who love shoujo manga . Honestly , fav fav fav ! Trust me on this.

Following an almost typical love triangle story, guy likes girl, girl likes other guy. The content and conflict in this manga creates a strong interest for readers (well, for me anyway). The first male character, Mamura, is shy yet certain. The second, Satsuki, is outgoing yet doubtful. As you can already tell, they are essentially polar opposites aside from a single key factor. . .their love interest.

The artist, in my opinion totally hit this manga with perfection. There is absolutely zero negative comments I could even think to make about the art in this manga. Everything is amazing and the emotions of the characters are clear to read and relate to.

Here is a link to the website where I read Hirunaka no ryuusei

My overall rating for this manga sits comfortably at a solid 9/10

I hope you all enjoy reading this manga as much as I did.

Lea GJ

Wednesday, 17 December 2014

Watch - Love Stage (anime)

So, I've just finished watching 'Love Stage' and I will say, I definitely was not expecting what happened to take place. Some things were VERY unexpected however, it was a rather cute anime.

This anime includes an interesting story-line, love interest, subtle humor, cute characters, emotional realism, passion and a conclusive outcome to all things. For 10 episodes, Eiki Eiki (author) and the animators managed to fit in a lot of emotion and story into the characters which is to be appreciated.

The colour of Izumi's eyes are really captivating, it is no wonder why all characters seem so intrigued and dazed by his eyes. I found myself wanting the same good luck marble because the colours were so beautiful and the concept was adorable.

To be honest, I really didn't know what to expect from this anime, judging from the cover art I assumed it was something to do with people in the film industry.As far as the BL goes, that was something I never would have guessed for sure! I am in no way against people of a similar kind, it was just very unexpected, but I guess that's what made it more interesting, like " oooo, is he? is this really going to happen?". Prior to viewing I did not realize it was a Yaoi. Nevertheless, with a short 10 episodes, it is worth the watch. A bit different for the usual viewer but nothing that leaves a scar. I suppose you're just going to have to watch it to find out the whole story :)

My overall rating for this anime sits at a 6.8/10. 

Have a wonderful night and I will post another 'Watch' in a few days :) 

Lea GJ

Tuesday, 11 November 2014

OMM - Weightloss & motivation

It has been a mission of mine for a little over 4 years to lose weight and reach a personal goal. I know that I should appreciate my body and current level of health and I do, sometimes. It's just that most of the time my mind is still seeking this ideal body that I know that I want and that I feel like I 'need' in order to be sane with myself. There is then the question of, 'How will I know I will feel this sense of happiness at the end of it all?' . Well, I've never felt so confident in something and it is so constant in my mind that I strongly believe that this is what is holding me back. 

The longest length of time that I have been able to maintain a healthy lifestyle would be just under 2 weeks. I did feel accomplished but obviously I would love to stay focused and motivated. People say if you want something so much, let nothing should stand in your way. Food is my weakness, sweets, takeouts etc, my mind is conscious of my actions which is where the post regret settles in. My motivation usually lasts for a night or if I'm lucky, a few days. I have tried alot of things to assist in sustaining these mini bursts of motivation but I always give in to junk food. I guess that is generally a big struggle in the overall weight loss sector of the world anyway. 

I am aware for some that this may seem quite wrong and obsessive but this is on my mind so often that obviously I have had A LOT to think about, covering and questioning countless things in my head.  I feel that attaining this body will leave me feeling whole and complete. This isn't for anybody else, this is for me. It does not matter to me how people will perceive me after this journey in comparison to my current status. This is for myself, this is for my mind, this is for me. 

If one day I am able to reach this goal, I know for certain that my life in terms of mindset and personal goals will be totally accomplished. This is kind of a personal topic for me so i'll end it here for now, it was just OMM (on my mind) so thought I would let out a little bit. 

Lea GJ

Monday, 29 September 2014

Project : Ezio Auditore part 1

Armageddon is coming up and this year I have decided to commit to attending in costume. I have completed the Assassins Creed series up to AC3. Don't judge my slow progress lol I have other priorities to tend too as well. However, I do own the entire series which is my 'totally valid reason' to temporarily fill the void for the time being.

I grew attached to Ezio Auditore, mostly because the series portrayed his entire life story from birth, so naturally, one would acquire a connection to the character. (Unless I am the only one. . .  :p ). This year I will cosplay as Ezio Auditore and will share my progress in making the costume with you guys :) All zero of you hehehe . If any one is interested, i'll keep you posted.  

This post will show the beginning stages and materials I am using to make the Leather Vambrace.

White and orange pastels, markers, craft knife, nail file/soft sandpaper, rough sandpaper, faux leather/vinyl (I used place mats I found at Kmart, they're called 'Leather look place mat' ) 

I wanted a more sturdy vambrace so I changed the base to EVA foam. This foam can be found at hardware stores in the carpet section. Google 'eva foam' and you'll know the mats that I mean. All I did to make the switch was drew the place mat base on the EVA foam and cut it out. Also, since the foam is quite stiff I used a heat gun to create a bend in the material. I used the rough sandpaper to create texture on the place mat. 

The mats usually come in grey/black so to create the brown leather colour I smudged an orange pastel over the foam. Orange paint would be more ideal but I did not have any at the time. 

This is the current progress picture. I am pretty proud of how it is looking so far. Will keep you updated and I am willing to answer any questions :)

The guide I used to get the pattern of the vambrace is from a PDF you can find here.

Lea GJ